negative and positive

A dark thing is but a block to transparency....an objection to free flow. Isnt it? similary if you end up getting someone who always cribs and thinks negative always becomes a negative example for others.....a sort of gloomy atmosphere gets created,a doom of darkness and door ways of no solutions are visible...life seems to be getting sucked up by a vaccum known as difficulties which tend to take a gigantic shape than in general.

I dont say that i am an alien to these- I have been through with these situations and today despite my efforts to be always positive,i fail to be so at times. However,there is one thing-I never lose hope. I know these dark clouds are for a short time and will pass for sure.
At office,am a star negatively seen...i dont mind being made a scape goat or being fired everyday. Reason is simple- I know whats wrong and where,I dont depend on others judgement when the latter doesnot know anything and goes on pounding things upon me,ordering me and blaming me. Pressure is right in North and there is no harm trying to push some down south....we all have to bear it in tough situations... some are fortunate enough to avoid it by showing some good results as a matter of luck while others like me who base their arguements on genuine facts end being a fool... for the person listening these,these are but mere excuses but facts which block the flow of work...... why did I write all this???
Only to tell you that the perception of me always giving lame excuses makes my boss feel am a loser and a negative viber in our team while i know whats being done at ground level to turn negative things positive here.... it makes me go negative for a while,with energy drained out but very soon i come back to my self-refreshed with new energy,ready to take charge of the battle as a leader... this is me....a part of me and my story.

now look at this...
i got introduced to a guy ,who happens to be our channel partner, last month.There was a positive thought in me .... a new addition for business and new counter for revenue generation and as he is of my age,things should not have been difficult. The twist however came later.

He started confiding in me,his problems-professional and personal. I heard it attentively as i had a habit of helping others with their problems-something whcih i am very successful till date, and thought that i should be with him for sometime till i came to realise that association with him was doing him no good rather was turning my world gloomy!!!!

negative vibes from him started occupying my head and i became a dull dude as him... i didnot realise it till the time the impact started to reflect on my business and the moment i analysed,i decided to draw a line and maintain distance..... since a couple of days,things are back to order.

this guy has a friend who happens to be my friend even before i met him. he has a vibrance so positive tht even if things are not going good, he will make u smile. thats the attitude which can take us miles even if roads are rough and since the day i started moving with him,things were back to brightness as they were...
I always believe in one principle.....Put ur efforts and work with ur heart- success is bound to follow. I never give up nor do i have a habit to wilt under pressure.... i have learnt to manage things under the sun even in negative times...tough times dont last as tough people do.....

i say ....negative people and times dont last long....only positive attitude does...
friends let us be going good with our targets and thoughts however hard it be for us to survive...... things gonna be ok one day ...... chale chalo!

Hindu,Muslim,Christian and an Indian

CONVERSIONS! PROTESTS!WAR! RIOTS!
this is not a headline or a flash in any news channel nor is it a shocking news any more if we come across any of them..... i used to wonder till date why there were riots and protests in the name of God,spread across all the religions in our country- a multli dialogue,multi faceted,multi lingual,united nation known as INDIA!
Where there is democracy and freedom of speech,things seem to have become more restricted including the right to express thoughts freely....freedom of common man has gone for a toss and those who are benefiting from the use are the ones having power,paisa and control over the rights and activites we do.
....and there are people who have a strong point to prove that their religion is powerful than that of the others. Religion seems to have become a scape goat for the powerful and those in publicity.
A hindu has a point, a Muslim has a point to prove,Christians have their own point and there is no Indian who has a point to prove that there is unity in diversity..... where is the INDIAN?
Take the case of the recent terror attack in Mumbai.... there were many who did protest the killings,condemend it and even went a step ahead to declare that we should severe our ties with our neighboring nation......but what was missing was the unity pan India.... Remember 9/11 incident? what was the united action there and what is it here? i dont say we should be attacking and destroying them from the root but,we should be united enough to defend and thwart any such attacks.
if that is a macro view and not that justified,think about the cases in Orissa and neighboring states where sects are at war footing over conversions and preaching of chrisitianity..... are not we doing a mistake here??
what when a group of muslims fights for the cause of their sect and shouts "justice for minority" and what for a hindu who says protect hindu's from conversion and build a ram rajya ..... why are we stressing for religions loudly at a level beyond the personal boundary? arent religions supposed to mean way to serve God irrespective of the name which we know them by? as we read newspapers in different languages for our better understanding so are the rules of the religions framed....preaching one and the same message but in a different lanuage understood well by the people who divide themselves into groups known as sects and form a protfolio known as religion only to push themselves into the darkness of the so called religion....

how many hindus know what Gita has to say? many of us dont know....other than some of the famous verses which we have heard in "Mahabharat" epic serial song....yada yada hi dharmasya...... dont we?
how many muslims who preach and teach quran know the exact meaning of each verse? very few but still then there are many who preach it in the wrong way....is jehad one of the ways prescribed by Allah??? i wont believe and buy this ...Allah or God or Bhagwan .... they never teach us to fight...they asked us to fight the evil and when every one present on earth has done some evil who gives them a right to punish the other???
when i come across such incidents as conversions,i have one question that immediately comes to my mind.....are the rest of Gods over powered by Jesus??? Sorry. I too respect all the religions and my name being Sai,i try to justify by treating all the sects and gods as one....but why do we convert? the motive behind this seems to be monetary than devotion...and if that is the reason we re misleading people..... why do we get attracted to bible more? a couple of converts i met said the power of Christ is what you get to know when you read the Bible.... agreed.
Didnot you find the time to read Bhagwad gita and try to understand the nuances as much as you are trying to understand the power by reading bible and attending sunday prayers???? who stopped you from going to temple and praying for an hour and discussing the purans with the pundits? if you dont understand sanskrit,there are preachers who would enjoy passing on the message too like the father in a church or a maulvi.... why cant it be done?
I would love to read the Bible,the Quran and the Gita and understand the message which unitedly they send.....and yet remain loyal to my religion....cant we do it?
and there is a contra thought....who are we to stop those who want to convert? its their interst and devotion which has made them do so...... if the poor today are surviving,it is the missionaries which feed them....there were great Indians in the past whom we talk about and do least to follow them but missionaries and charities are not like that...as far as i have seen,they provide the deprived a chance to live and earn and the price is but a conversion.....
WHTS THE HARM?????
when we are unable to set up institutions which can feed the poor,who are we to stop the messengers of God?
an Indian would always think wise,a person pertaining to a religion would think it the other way because he is not an Indian.....

sorry if any how this has hurt the sentiments or has made u feel it a crap.....
pour in ur comments.....

MERRY CHRISTMAS

sweet memories and broken woes....

many things in life have a conclusion which we never expect.... and at the time when it is least expected they either are wrapped up as sweet memories and kept inthe files of our brain forever... they always bring a smile on our lips and a brightness which drives away all the gloom surrounding us but,at times the conclusions are either jittery or heart wrenching...always letting a tear trickle down our cheeks and sending the message of solitude to the world around-every thng seems to stop suddenly,everything that we do seem to fail and then,our mental stabilty goes for a toss.....

there are instances where i have undergone pain and also had sweet memories...... i dont wanna gloom the post with some negative vibes but wanna share some good instances and moments which always refresh me....
the day i joined the job,it was a different day almost. before that, i used to be a part of a sea of students.....as a school student,as a intermediate student,as a graduate,as a student of law and finally as a management student and this day i belong to a class of people known as professionals. the first day of the first job is always a memory sweeter than sugar :-).

my first flight-from hyderabad to mumbai. yet another sweet memory. Till then i had been to airport as a visitor to send of someone or had been to do a project as a management student but never to board one. the experience was different. However,journey by volvo busses had let me know not much of it. Many experienced fliers say that when the flight takes off,there is always a different feeling....may be spinning of head or something like that but,in my case,nothing as such happened. i could feel the flight take off and once off the ground,the world around got transformed into a google earth model which i always use to travel the world...free of cost!
those gigantic mountains became small plateaus and the rivers became a splash of blue on a canvas surrounded by earth brown and green colors with disections and intersections of black lines as thin as a line or a stroke of pencil lead on white paper... when the flight was on the apex..... sitting by the wing,i could see the floating clouds kiss it and forming a cushion beneath....

now lets get down the flight and travel the much travelled path-road!
In Mumbai,we went to Sahara city.....I heard Subroto roy promising Indian cricket team in the world cup at some point of time that he would gift them the cottages when they bring the cup home....and i was there to take a look at the beauty engineered by him this day. Sprawling to the length my eyes could gauge,it was a breathless beauty. we were greeted at the enterance in a typical Indian style.... there were drums,smiling reception from the beautiful ladies who greeted us with a tilak on our foreheads and a drink to cool us....

....natural beauty was abundant for all those who loved nature more than partners!!!

there was one incident which happende which i cannot forget..... it was a bit frightening and adventurous as well...... there was one pool where all my colleagues were playing hand ball ....and many were diving in to be a part of the game. Some thing in me said to be a part of the game... and my feet tiptoed towards the pool slowly...... equally there was one fear which was dragging my feet away.... I didnot know how to swim and till date i have never tried learning it ....

however,i decided to go ahead and went up the slide and went down in a flash! the moment next every thing went blank as we see in the movies when some one is drowned in a pool of water.....silence all around as if all the sound systems of the nature have been muted...... i was in the pool..... i didnot know for a second what had happened.....there was no sun,no friends,no noise but it was only water all around.... and then i emerged out of the water..... gasping for oxygen.... (generally that is what happens when u dive into the waters.....but being a first timer into the waters,it was something different.....it shook me for a while...) and then i found my feet at the floor of the pool,there was sun,noises around and ofcourse my colleagues in the pool playing hand ball.....
a smile broke on my lips and i tried moving ahead by walking with my feet to the slippery ground of the pool without any support of the wall... i could not walk as i was unable to balance my body in there and again slipped in.....this time it was very bad. I was in the centre of the pool with one of my colleague by my side and when i slipped in,it was in sleeping position with face down and back up....i tried balancing myself and avoided hitting the floor....at that moment only one thing struck me .. not to panic but hold on to one of the many legs which were in the water so that i can get some help and yes,after being submerged for a minute,i got a hand to pull me out.....

Well this was my second and perhaps the last encounter with pool and water....the first one being in school when i slipped into a small water tank and was in it head in feet out for a couple of minutes before the labourers working on a building there in spotted me...

Even today also when i remind myself of this incident at Sahara,i shiver.

after that i had been to many places where i had to cross brooks with strong flowing waters walking or rivers by boats when on trips in the weekends.....some real adventural memories which are sweeter than the trip enjoyments to the forest areas in EAST GODAVARI..

there are memories of my meetings with some people which i can never forget but, every meeting reminded, gives a feeling of solitude which hurts more than any thing in the world.
I wont go deep into this but would only say one thing.... it hurts to be deeply involved into relationships which we have to terminate at some point of time..... yes,i felt it because the day i left rajahmundry and got transfered to kakinada just 60kms away from the city,i knew i would miss my best friend and guide and that i have to start everything from zero again on personal basis...... i am a person who hates to be lonely and this was the situation where i was again left to the mercy of solitude till the time i got some one matching my mentality.... it may seem a minute issue but when faced,things change....

even today when i come back to my room after the day's work,solitude hurts!
well,i close here....... post in ur sweet,adventurous or some james bond/dracula moments...which u would wish to share.....

see you:-)

beer v/s women

Beer v/s women
1. A beer is always wet, a woman isn't.
1 point for beer!

2. Beer is horrible when it is hot.
1 point for women!

3. A cold beer satisfies you.
1 point for beer!

4 . If you come back home smelling beer, your wife can get angry at you. If you come back home smelling women, your wife will get angry for sure and she might even not talk to you again.
Draw! (It depends on your point of view).

5. 10 beers in a night and then you can't drive. 10 women in one night and you don't have to drive anywhere!
1 point for women!

6. The older beer is, the better.1 point for beer!7. Many beers can make you see UFO's. Many women can make you see God!
1 point for women!

8. If you ask yourself how the next woman will be, you're normal. If you ask yourself how the next beer will be, you're alcoholic.
1 point for women!

9. For a beer you pay taxes.
1 point for women!

10. If you take a second beer, the first one doesn't get angry.
1 point for beer!

11. You can always be sure that you're the first one "opening" a beer.
1 point for beer!

12. If you shake a beer, after a while it calms down by itself.
1 point for beer!

13. You know exactly how much a beer costs.
1 point for beer!

14. A beer doesn't have a mother.
1 point for beer!

15. You can do it if you want, but beer won't ask you to hug her for half an hour after.
1 point for beer!

Final Score: Beer beats women. (9 to 6)If you're a woman and getting angry, think that a beer wouldn't.Another point for beer! FINAL SCORE: 10 to 6.

childhood and life after that....

How happy life was...... lets race back 20 years when we were still a child.....no responsibilites,no problems,no work,no targets...... aaaaha!

but as we grew up..... expectations grew with us silently preparing a ground for the attack. for some life of responsibilities start at a very ripe age and for some there is always a time yet to come.... kya lucky hain woh boss!!

As a child,we are more important than any thing in the world but , the importance and focus changes as we celebrate our birthday every year.... good ranks,higher studies,good placement and jobs with good packages,marriage,children and parenthood where, we see a reflection of both the sides- the way our parents bought us up and the way we grew as children... we come to understand at that point why our parents restrained us from eating ice creams or asked us to use monkey caps in winter ,not to go to movies,not to play outside and focus more on studies and also will come to know our own reactions to such sanctions and happiness at times when father would buy us a pair of new shoes or a new trouser and shirt on birthdays.....

life is like that.... some thing that we face in between is the part of the movie which we didnot see when our father was at office-reporting to his boss,trying to meet his targets and in the process getting fed up with the tauntings for not doing things on time or doing things which bosses dont like(there comes the ego factor) or getting frustrated with the hurdles.... we always saw our father coming back home tired and angry,at times happy ...we,as a child, know papa is happy with us when he brings us sweets and some toys or never questions why we need pocket money.... that is the time when papa used to get his salary and or the work pressure is not very high-we know that when we get our salary or at the time when our targets are fufilled or that we are having not much of work load and try to shower some happiness for our all those around us. ( this is an instance,need not be the same in all the cases...)

life is not as hard as we think while on job... we feel over burdened and at times when people like me dont know how to manage things,tend to find ways to find an excuse..... something which is an art in the field of marketing.... what i have observed is that in order to survive,we need to have some skill or the other-either that we should be a gladiator or a stage player donning all the roles as we proceed.... i prefer to be both....gladiator and a stage player....life cant be one but, both. and there is one part of me which I want to preserve for ever..... my tendency to behave like a child..... it keeps me young .....who wants to grow old and count grey hairs????

not me!

yaba daba dooooooooooo....... i wanaa be a menacing child----boooooooooooo.......!!!!!!!

le'me know any changes if required.....welcome

Prized Photographs

tree stump,pattiseema

sign board welcoming into a camp site in palmeru

sign boards in the camp site in palmeru

tree shaped as a "pyaala" inside palmeru,near maredumilli forests

water falls at ettipotala water project,on way to nagarjuna sagar dam

sunset at pattiseema

photographs:D.Sai Kumar

terror and unity

Mumbai ,terror and India

Mumbai terror was a horror unleashed. chaos and fear combined with the rumors and grapewines doing rounds about further gory to be witnessed it is time we wake up and take an affirmative action.

I didnot realise the inhumanity till the time i saw the photographs of the slain victims in one the forwards i recieved from my friend. Even a butcher while butchering would show some symapthy but not these devils who seem to have lost mind,heart,thought,rationality and vision!!!

the only thought that comes to me is to react wild enough to let terrorists kill themselves with fear.... i dont know how to express myself.... i dont want to light candles or march with banners. this wont do any good to the families of those slain nor to the country which stands naked to the terror attacks... more terror attacks,some more dead bodies and maximum news coverage.... we will see them flashing this news for some more time till the time a hot news pops up. Politicians would use it as an agenda to win elections and garner votes in vote bank with promises to show no sympathy to the terrorists,the prime minister and the ministers in opposition would "condemn"the killings and term them as barbarious while the chief of the state would declare ex gratia for the kin of the dead.......

when will this hype end? when will we be able to walk free without fear of being targeted and being slain??? when will mumbai terror replication stop?

love and marriage

"I LOVE YOU"......speak it any language but the expression carries the same meaning....the message of a loving heart to the other. a very precious message it is and a very delicate relationship which is but,based on many aspects. am very young to be philosophical and a bit very conservative but i think i have some instances to share which in this short period of time have put me in a dillema...whether to love or not!



first of all love is not a vegitable or an ornament to be purchased at a price bargained with the vendor and kept in refrigerator for consumption,many people have a notion like this when they say search for me a girl or vice versa or i will search for you a suitable match whom you can fall in love with.....wait a minute... its not a job which you can search and match with the mentality of the other! how on the earth can you and I do that???



Its only when we are having a match of the key aspects which may, obviously, differ in each of us according to the tastes and preferences that the love is born and nurtured....it may take hours,days,months,years or even decades...but love happens by heart not by match fixing!



let me present you some instances where I have come across some love marriages....

1. she liked him while on job... knew all about him the good bad and the ugly part.... and yet decided to go ahead with the marriage...love only happened before marriage. now after marriage,there is not only a communication gap but a gap in the understanding and compromises that one has to undergo after marriage. where is the fault?


2. she like him since a very young age,stayed at his place as he happened to be her relative, and never did mind doing all the household work and listenin to some chin music from his mother....she had only one belief- her love. they married. things didnot go better.... they got worse. he started dating...to be precise-extra marital affairs and did never bother to pay attention to her needs and desires. today,after two years of marriage and his ever increasing desire for love beyond his married life has made her attempt three suicides.... at a point of time it went up to divorce but we friends some how held things back to normal.now,unable to bear her mother in laws attrocities she has come out to stay independent with her husband thus liberalising him more.she however,hopes against hope that he will realise his guilt and walk back some day....(which is a distant dream)... however,she has won in a way by getting a job and become more independent financialy. what about the psychological independence with her husband who finds better bonding with alliens ??

in both the cases above love is and was blind but what has happened before marriage and after that shows clearly that literaly life had become nothing but a dungeon for both these women. now one of them is searching for a parter who matches her mentality and thats it.......

how is justice done here?

its a contradiction to what i spoke in some of the sentences above but what was spoken was philosophy and what has happened is practical. now who is to be blamed? the lady who has loved her husband despite his extra marital affairs or the lady who has lost love in her ever busy workaholic husband and is searching for a partner in every man she meets?

this ain't be a movie friends...... but the practicality of life that love is good but after marriage it becomes worst...... the promises made and the love showered all transform into a drought and the partners are either left searching for newer avenues where love dwells or fall prey to the hopes that kabhi to number aayega!

i too would love to love someone but am afraid ... that i may not be able to do justice ..but, i would better go for arranged marriage (i dont have much of a clear thought and devotion for such a sacred relationship as love and marriage thereafter) ..... and then love my partner..... for a stronger and healthier relationship .......jo rahe zindagi ke saath bhi aur zindagi ke baad bhi..... dhik tang,dhik tang dhik tang!!!!!

PS: I HOWEVER RESPECT ALL THOSE JODIS WHO HAVE SUCCESSFULLY OVERCOME THE INTIAL HICCUPS AND ARE LIVING A HAPPY LOVE MARRIED LIFE..... i know some brighter love marriages too....and would expect all the lovers to be true to their expressions and do justice to the knot tied.....

need to know the readers views which i believe will be as varied as the variety of flowers and the trees and the species on earth..... all are welcome....